Urgh, its been a hellish few days

So since finding out I was pregnant, I have had to go off Motrin, and switch to tylenol. Which is like taking tic tacs for a headache. These past few days i've been so sick, and doing nothing but basically laying and crying on the couch. Finally yesterday, I went to the urgent care to see what the heck was going on. They basically said that I was pregnant and couldnt give me anything or even run tests. So i asked them to check my blood level while I was there. Wow low and behold a normal persons is 13, mine usually is 9's, it was 6.3. All of a sudden my room is filled with the nurses and Dr's and I get taken by ambulance to the hospital.

Im all alone and luckly the nurse called my hubby, and he showed up about 30 min later. I was there for about 7hrs and got two units of blood, and got an e.k.g, apparently you can go into heart failure or have a heart attack. even when i left my nurse taught me to check my own pulse. My heart was still fast.

I was in so much pain there.....they didnt give me tylenol until 9pm...and it only helped for 1hr. i was just laying there and crying, i wanted to seriously claw my own brain out. Id rather go through birth, then have a headache like that...it was hell.

so now i still take 2 tylenols every 4 hrs, even at night, otherwise the horrible pain comes back. But on the bright side, I am finally off the couch and can do normal stuff again. Like we went to lunch today, i and I felt fine...super tired, but fine:)

addicted to baby sites

Today all day I've been surfing all the baby websites I could get my hands on. I did hit one site that was talking about chromosomes....and that depressed me. One reason that the Drs. gave me a while go is that because i have a trans- location in my chromosomes, that would prob be the reason why I lost my previous 4 pregnancies.

So i need to stop acting that I'm def pregnant, because out of my 5 pregnancies, only one actually turned into a baby. I have faith that if god wants me to have a baby, then I will be pregnant with a live child. All I can do is hope right? I know I will prob stress out about it...like I do everything else, but I know stressing out about it wont do anything.

I just really hope that Jer will be able to have a sibling. He needs a friend to play with. And I miss having a baby in he house. I have all the pregnancy symptoms, although with all my other pregnancies, i had the symptoms too. although the sickness hasn't started. I ate a huge dinner tonight because I know that its coming. With Jer i got it pretty bad.

Oh so tired!!!

Today i felt like I havent slept in days......all i wanted to do was sleep, but since it was Superbowl......I wanted to make awhole bunch of fattening food...lol While things were cooking, I was laying on the couch. Waiting for the timer to go off. My husband must have seen how tired I was beucase while I was letting Jer play in the bath< he took it upon himself to clean the dishes and the kitchen :) Now only if my son would want to go to sleep early, then maybe I could go to be too.